I know, been busy…

Part of the reason I haven’t posted much lately is I haven’t felt very coherent or articulate. I definitely have a sense that I’m on the precipice of a new stage in my life, except I’m not altogether sure what that stage is or will hold. Certainly I have been questioning my long-term commitment to my Job, and that has been part of it. And I’ve been trying to climb my way out of depression once again, with varying results. I have this constant question in my mind of “Well what DO I want?” and my answers have not been too clear, which worries me. I’m used to being pretty sure about these things. Or at least I like to think so.

I have been good the past couple weeks and actually taken real weekends (Sunday-Monday) Well, there may have been some e-mail involved but it’s a start. It’s hard not to panic on a day off about all the things that I have to face when I return to work. But I’m trying to be strong about it, let things fall where they may, and tell myself I will be more productive if I’m rested at least. Through no great initiative of my own I also got out of teaching Sunday School (attendance was low and they combined classes and don’t need me much anymore), which is also probably a good thing in the realm of taking things off my list. I haven’t been to church in a couple months, which I regret, and I do want to get back into that soon. I need restoration. And maybe a place of worship isn’t a bad place to sort out a life’s purpose…